These last few nights..I haven’t taken anything to help me sleep so of course I end up dreaming. It’s the same dream. It’s always about you. You tell me how you’ve made a mistake and that it didn’t mean anything and you don’t care about her and that you miss me. That you love me and only me. And I can always feel my heart swell, and I don’t mean in the dream. I can literally feel my heart swell as I’m sleeping. And then I have to force myself to wake up because I know it’s not true, that it’s just a dream, and I’m never gonna see you again. I know I’m never going to se you again, not the way I want to. But do I even want to see you that way again? I’m so angry at you, really, everything I said to you in my last text was true, but I can’t help the dreams.
I don’t understand how you came home to me every day, saw me every day, told me you were in love with me and I was the only one you ever wanted to be with, and yet you were still with her. You’re probably telling her the same stuff now and that disgusts me. You disgust me. I thought your dad raised you better than that but obviously not. And you know your dad is just as fake because now I realize that he only spoke to me because I was around. Your aunt on the other…I’m sure she’d be so proud of what you did if I told her the next time we spoke